It ain’t over, yet…

It ain’t over, yet… ¬†ūüôā

Last year at this time, I was miserable. ¬†I had so much extra weight on me. ¬†My self esteem was suffering and I didn’t want to go through “another year” of setting the same old resolution only to get off track by mid-January and lose hope AGAIN.

This year, I was miserable because of health issues. ¬†I’ve had a shoulder injury which has caused some excruciating pain at times and ended me up in the Emergency Room. ¬†I’ve been sedentary since the Wednesday before Christmas and on lots of pain pills and muscle relaxers. ¬†For about a week, I could not even wash dishes, vacuum, lift anything heavier than a fork or do laundry. ¬†(Oh, darn, right??) ¬†I’m realizing what a true gift my health really is.

So, here we are on New Year’s Eve, 2011. ¬†No, I have not hit my initial goal of losing 50 pounds, in fact, over the holidays, I gained about 5 pounds and just in the past week (since the ER visit with my back) I have gained an additional 3. ¬†I’m weighing in somewhere around 164. ¬†So, I have a decision to make. ¬†Do I let it get me down that I’ve gained 8-10 pounds back or do I use that as a springboard to motivate me to keep going forward with more energy and determination? ¬†I choose the springboard. ¬†I found this photo posted on facebook:

This is my motivation. ¬†I haven’t made it to my goal yet but I’m not as far from it as I was this time last year. ¬†My journey began January 18th, 2011. ¬†It does not have an ending point, a destination of sorts. ¬†It will be a lifelong journey for me so I’ve settled in for the long haul. ¬†It’s not a diet. ¬†It’s a mindset. ¬†A lifestyle. ¬†I know at this time of year, there’s the big fitness push, all the TV commercials, all the books on the shelves, all the talk is about getting fit and healthy, getting organized, getting out of debt, etc. ¬†If you do choose to try and live healthier this year, I challenge you, don’t let it be a fad – do it for real this year.


I’m starting somewhere around 164 this year, last year I was 204.8. ¬†Some resources I have found useful over the past year:


The book GOALS by Tommy Lanham – to step by step this book¬†really helped ¬†me set small attainable goals with a purpose… ones I can actually accomplish! ¬†I can’t tell you what a difference this book has made in my personal journey. ¬†It’s a short, easy read that has the potential to change your life if you let it.


A life coach – I have worked with a life coach through most of this journey. ¬†It really helps me stay on track when I know that each week, I have someone asking me, “How’d you do this week?” ¬†“Did you do your 5 workouts?” ¬†“What do you feel you need to do this week?” ¬†My life coach has helped me focus on what’s important and the REASONS I have to lose weight.


A sponsor – I have a dear friend of mine who has lost so much weight. ¬†She understands it – she “gets it.” ¬†She didn’t have surgery, do fad diets or starve herself. ¬†She understands how much of an addiction this can be and howhard it is. ¬†I can call her in the middle of Kroger with 2 boxes of HoHo’s in my cart and she will tell me to walk away… ask me how I know!! ¬†ūüôā ¬†She will be 100% honest and even though she’s 10 hours away, she will kick my butt if I don’t stick to the plan. – this is a website I have been using to track my food intake, count calories and connect with others who have the same goals I have.


I have not been doing my devotions and reading my Bible like I should over the past few weeks. ¬†The hustle and bustle of the holidays has gotten me off track spiritually and I really do believe that when I’m off spiritually, every other aspect of my life suffers, including the weight issue. ¬†I’m starting off tomorrow with 3 new books. ¬†Made to Crave, the Made to Crave devotional and The Maker’s Diet.

I’ll keep you posted on my opinion of these books. ¬†I do want to encourage you to read, educate yourself and challenge yourself. ¬†If you immerse yourself in information about health & wellness, you’re much more likely to stick to losing the weight and making healthier choices.


Brian Tracy says “You are what you think about most of the time.” ¬†If you think about how much you miss those doughnuts or those sweets, that’s what you will focus on. ¬†Instead, think about health, read about it, start your own blog about it, talk about it with your spouse, family members, friends. ¬†Surround yourself with information and health and it will be a great start to this journey.

So, there you have it. ¬†My renewed¬†commitment¬†to my health, my God and my blog. ¬†ūüôā ¬†If you want to receive a notification when I post a new blog (typically 2-3 times per month) then click on “Yep, I’m in, sign me up!” ¬† Let me know if you’re on the same journey and let’s cheer each other on! ¬†God bless you this new year!



Focus.¬† It’s not just a car that Ford makes.¬† ūüôā¬† When you focus on something, it becomes important in your life.¬† That’s why it is essential to have a goal.¬† It gives you something to focus on.¬† I once heard a motivational speaker ask “If you go hunting and you see a field full of deer, do you just randomly shoot hoping to get lucky or do you pick one, focus on it and shoot?”¬† Any hunter out there will tell you your chances of killing a deer are next to nothing if you try to shoot them all.¬† You’ve got to have focus.

When I first started this journey on January 18, 2011, I weighed 204.4 pounds and was physically and emotionally miserable.  I chose to focus on my weight and becoming healthy again.  I read books that educated me on nutrition (not silly fad diets), I joined and educated myself on calories and exercise.  I began working on setting goals, developing healthy habits and making a plan with my life coach, Brian Osher.  I began to move more and eat wisely.  I weighed in every week and blogged weekly about my experiences as the weight began to come off.  Choosing to focus on my journey was as big a decision as committing to eat healthier and start exercising.

I weighed in this morning at 155.4.  To date, that is a loss of 49.0 pounds.  I have so much more energy, I feel fantastic (most days) and my health issues (especially the digestive issues) have all but disappeared.

I’m going to risk sounding negative here but I want to share something.¬† When people see me and notice the weight¬†loss, they often ask “How did you do it?¬† I really need to¬†do something about my weight.”¬† When I tell them (often to their disappointment) that I am eating¬†healthier and exercising,¬†you can almost see them mentally change the channel.¬† I get excuse after excuse as to why they can’t change their diet:¬† “My husband¬†likes¬†fatty foods and I don’t want to cook 2 different meals for us every night.”¬†¬†“I have a hurt¬†(insert body part) and can’t exercise.”¬† “I¬†just can’t find the time to exercise.”¬†¬†You know what?¬† That only tells me that they¬†don’t really want to do something about their weight.¬†¬†Zig¬†Ziglar says “If you¬†really wanted to¬†be something different than what you¬†are, you would already be making the changes to become what you want.”¬† You’ve got to get to¬†“That Point.”¬† If they’re not to that point, I can see why¬†they tune me out.¬† So forgive me when I answer¬†the “How did you do it?”¬†questions with a quick but polite answer.¬† If¬†you really want to know more, ask for more details but I won’t offer them.¬† I’ve been¬†tuned out¬†too many times.

My weight loss has not been easy РI have often equated it to the disease of alcohol addiction, only my disease is food addiction.  When I stopped making excuses, God blessed my efforts and has been faithful.  I know it sounds absolutely crazy but when I lag behind on my devotions or find myself lacking in my prayer life, my weight tends to go up.  I honestly believe that losing weight is as much a physical endeavor as it is emotional, mental and spiritual.

Do you find yourself offering excuse after excuse?¬† Don’t wait for New Year’s – start now – start tonight.¬† “If you’re going to make a real and lasting change, you must make changes immediately and enthusiastically!”¬† – Tommy Lanham

Make this a focus and do something for yourself, the Lord’s temple, your children’s parent, your parent’s child, your spouse…. stop making excuses.¬† Click on “Sign me up” at the right hand side of this blog & join me as we go through this journey together.¬† I need you – I need your support and your success stories and your “I just ate a bag of Ding-Dong’s” stories.¬†¬† Commitment is a balance between formula and freedom.¬† Let’s be free together!¬† Come on, we can do this!


That Fat Girl

Tonight as I was preparing to play softball with our church softball team, I began to have flashbacks of that fat girl in elementary and middle schools that was always picked last.¬† And when I got forced onto someone’s team because I was the last person in line, I played pitifully.¬† Those flashbacks made me apprehensive about playing.¬† All the insecurities of that fat girl came flooding back.

I found out tonight that it’s not enough to change your body¬†and lifestyle but you’ve got to change your mindset.¬† I was dressed in the most athletic thing I could find (a pair of 1 size too big denim capris and a red tank top) standing in my living room behind my kids on the couch watching Electric Company.¬† The characters on the screen were singing about taking chances, take a step forward and get in the game even if you are scared.¬† Wow – isn’t it cool how God can speak to us in any number of mediums?¬† As I stood there, I felt my confidence building.¬† Then my daughter, suddenly realizing I’m in the room, turns and says to me, “Mommy, you look absolutely magnificent losing so much weight!”¬† She came over and hugged me and told me I used to be so big and now I’m so little.¬† Thank you God for that little messenger giving me your message of encouragement.

Many of you have asked why I haven’t blogged the past 2 weeks.¬† It’s not that I’ve lost motivation or gained any weight.¬† We were out of town last week at the North American Christian Convention where I served as the Student Convention Photographer and had no time to write.¬† This week, I suffered a bout of the 24 hour flu.¬† And let me tell you, it was awful.¬† I went outside on a day when the heat index was 115 degrees in my sweat suit with my bathrobe on to warm up.¬† So the answer is – No, I’ve not gained any weight.¬† I’m still motivated, still working out and discovering great ways to change my diet to healthier choices.¬† I’m reading a great book by Tosca Reno that I highly suggest.¬† It’s¬†a practical guide to eating clean and includes foods we actually will eat.

I weighed in this week at 160.0 – a loss of 2.4 more pounds.¬† That’s a total of 44.4 pounds lost since January 18, 2011.¬† ūüôā¬† I’m 10 pounds from my first goal of 150.¬† It’s amazing the new person I am becoming.¬† I’m more confident, more active, have tons more energy and a much more positive outlook on life.¬† Can’t wait to see what Goes does next!

The New-“er” Me

I made it!¬† I made it!¬† I just overcame my first plateau!¬† I lost a grand whopping total of 1 whole pound in the previous 2 weigh-ins so I decided to switch the routine up a little bit and jump-start my body into losing more weight and it worked!¬† Let me¬†share some details.¬† I do the same workout every morning – I try to burn 350 calories on my elliptical in around 25-28 minutes.¬† I never eat before a workout (I get insanely sick to my stomach) and I try to stay at or just under the 1200 calories I’m trying to consume each day.¬† That was the old”er” me.

Well, I decided to do some different workout routines.  I am a part of a walking group that meets on Wednesday nights and I started working out with a lady from my church to a DVD workout program on Monday mornings.  The variety in workouts helped keep me from getting bored this week.  Kinda new for me.  I liked it.

I never, ever eat breakfast before a workout.¬† It makes me sluggish and sick to my tummy.¬† But after reading all the information on metabolism, I’m convinced it’s wise to eat a little something before a workout.¬† I experimented a couple of days and found out that 1/2 of a¬†banana about 15 minutes before a workout didn’t cause much nausea.¬† Huh… who would’ve thought?¬† ūüėȬ† This is me…. getting smarter.

As I reviewed my food journal (logged online at¬†– a completely free website, by the way) I noticed I was staying between 1000-1200 calories most days.¬† For the goals I have set, it is recommended that I keep my calorie intake at 1200 per day.¬†¬†The body needs 1200 calories just to eat, digest, breathe, keep your heart beating, etc.¬† So I think my body was holding on to everything I was putting into it because I suddenly stopped the regular weight loss (averaging 1.0 – 1.5 pounds lost¬†per week).¬† I started eating a bare minimum of 1200 this week and also ate back some of my workout calories.¬† (1200 +350 for that elliptical workout each day = 1550 calories).¬† In order for your body to burn calories and lose weight, you have to give it enough energy (calories) to do so.¬† I know, sounds kind of mixed up, doesn’t it?¬† But I started eating more and ended up jumping right off that plateau I was stalled at.¬† This is me…. getting wiser.

Today, my dad had surgery to remove some skin cancer.¬† During the procedure, my kids and I went out to the stairwell and went from top to bottom (3 flights of stairs) 8 times.¬† Took me 6 minutes and buddy, my calves are feeling it tonight, but I did it!¬† There was a day not too long ago (about 3 1/2 months ago, to be exact) that I could’ve walked up the 11 steps from my basement without getting out of breath.¬† Yes, my extended family visiting in the waiting room must’ve thought I was weird.¬† The staff at the hospital must’ve thought I was weird.¬† No, I didn’t have workout clothes on.¬† Yes, I was concerned I’d be all stinky by the time I was done.¬† No, apparently, I wasn’t all that concerned because I did it anyway.¬† And yes, I did get sweaty and stinky.¬† I don’t care because I did it ANYWAY.¬†¬†Yep, that’s the new”er” smarter, wiser¬†me.¬†¬†I kinda like her….. even if she is a little stinky.¬† ūüôā

Oh, yeah…. you wanna know my weigh-in this week?¬† I weighed in at an even 176.0!¬† I am now 1 pound from the weight I was at on my wedding day almost 11 years ago.¬† I’m MORE than 1/2 way to my goal.¬† I started at 204.2 and my goals is 150.¬† 28.2 down in 3 months, 10 days.¬†¬†26 more pounds¬†to go.¬† Let’s do this!¬† Follow this blog by clicking “Yep, I’m in!¬† Sign me up!” to the upper right hand side of this story.¬† Let’s do this together!¬† Find the new”er” you!