Have you ever had one of those weeks that seemed to go on for an eternity and all you wanted to do was crawl back into bed and take a long nap? It has been that kind of week for me. I lost a lot of steam this week and at times wanted to give up. I’ve lost 25 pounds, clothes are fitting me better, people are starting to notice, time to slack off, right? NO! I’m not on a diet, I’m not losing weight on a time table and when I reach that goal weight, I’m not changing anything that I’m doing now. I’ve changed the way I think about food – it’s no longer a comfort for me, it’s fuel to keep me going. When I’m hungry, I no longer mindlessly put things in my mouth until I can’t stuff anything else in. I try to think about what I need fuel for – am I hungry because I have worked out and need more calories, or am I hungry because I am stressed or have had a difficult conversation with a friend or family member? I’ve made a lot of progress.
UNTIL this wretched week… I had to go back and re-study the changes I’ve made and re-focus on why I’m doing what I’m doing. Keeping a journal has been a huge blessing for me. It has helped me see my journey on paper. The reasons I’m losing weight: I am tired of being fat. I want to run and play with my children without the threat of passing out from exhaustion. I want to be active and healthy. I want to put on a bathing suit without hoping the earth will swallow me up before anyone sees me. I want to stop using food as a sedative, a comfort that only seeks to destroy me. I want to give God the glory for this temple he has given me. Up until now, I feel like I have defiled it by stuffing it full of junk and then expecting Him to bless it. If I go back to my old habits, I have failed. I will succeed, with God’s help, I will do this.
So this week, I lost another 1.4 pounds to weigh in at 179.0…. I’ve lost 25.4 pounds total and have 26.6 pounds left to go. I’m almost half way there! I can’t believe it – I’ve tried diets, weight loss tricks, sporatic workouts, restricting foods (low carb diets, etc.) and nothing has ever worked. People are starting to notice the weight coming off and are asking me “What are you doing to lose weight?” Well, what do I answer to that? It’s enough to fill a book but I’m sure if I started THAT answer, people would eventually fall over from exhaustion listening to me explain. So how do I answer them in 1 minute or less?? I’m working out and eating healthier? But that doesn’t even begin to explain the transformation my mind and spirit are going through. I’m a different person, I’m being changed from the inside out, slowly but surely. How do you explain such a transformation? For now, when I’m asked how I’m doing it, my new short answer is… “Read the blog.” 🙂
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